No rest for this Mama. . .

I have had such a migraine today. I've struggled to keep myself going this morning. Jaxon's school was on an hour delay and it was great to sleep in an extra 45 minutes but it got us out of our morning routine off. Last night I went to bed with a migraine and prayed that it would be gone in the morning, but no luck. It started yesterday afternoon. I get these when I cry a lot or if the day has been overly stressful. I was given some information yesterday, that will forever change my thoughts on many things. I would have to say that I am haunted by this information (if that isn't being too dramatic of me?!). It's all I can think about. My every move is a reflection of what I now know. I got something out of the fridge and just about cried. Just thinking about how others before me dealt or didn't deal with this burden. I have always said that my biggest weakness is having too much empathy for people. I completely put myself in other's shoes and am changed so strongly by doing so. (some call it being dramatic, but I call it "living strongly") My heart changed yesterday. I have a whole new outlook and all because I finally have some clues to how a few generational curses were created. Without going into detail (out of respect for others involved) I am a new woman. . . well minus the same old headaches. lol

I look at those I love with so much more passion and conviction. I have a desire for deeper relationships and bonds. I desire to use what time I have been given to cherish things instead of complaining about what I don't have. Cause man, I've got a LOT!! It may not have been what I had dreamed of as a child or young woman, but it is perfect none the less! ~That's just a little bit of my line of thinking today. I can't seem to get much more to come out due to this headache. I would love to just crawl in bed and block out all the noise, but seriously! lol Not an option for this mama.

My younger boys are sitting in their chairs and watching Bolt. They are too hilarious together. I wonder what will happen next year when Asher is in school. I'm very nervous about it actually. I was this nervous when Jaxon started kindergarten too, so I know it will blow over. It will all be fine once everyone gets in a groove and routine. I'm not sure what I will do with only 2 kiddos. Wow that seems like a vacation or something. I will be so sad though. My kids are growing up too fast. I wish I could slow it down, but I'm excited to see what the next few years will hold.

Here are a few silly pics I took after dinner the other night. Jaxon and Noah were already done with dinner and playing in their room, so they missed out on pictures.



Lyla being so silly!





My beautiful Asher!