Full

I have been feeling very full since Sunday. Something that I haven't felt (naturally or spiritually) in a long time. I have missed so much service lately and have a feeling it won't be letting up anytime soon. But none the less, I enjoyed being there Sunday. I got what I was looking for and so much more. I have been so troubled by a few things for months now and after a lot of prayer, I was still just numb and angry with it all. Sunday the Lord gave me such a piece of mind and healing to these situations. HIS words just spoke to my soul and given me such a feeling of contentment. What a blessing!! These situations may not change, but I have and that in itself is a miracle and testimony of HIS POWER!

Before Sunday I was angry that after months of prayer NOTHING was happening. Not even a small budge of change. . . nothing!!! I was angry with God and frustrated with the life I had been given. (I know, how ungrateful, right?!!) But I am human and I felt this way. I was judgemental and ANGRY. I did not choose to be placed in this life and with certain family, but none the less, here I was. Sunday there was a such a sweet spirit in the air and I was just filled with the need to surrender. I was stuck in my seat for the fear that I had no right to be down front. I hadn't been to church in so long and my heart was not in the right spot. I was held by fear of what others would think. (typical for me!) But then, my sweet friend went down and I just knew God had sent her there knowing I would always support her. So down I went. Doesn't HE ALWAYS know what we need, even when we think He doesn't!!! 

Simple words HE spoke to me changed my entire outlook on things. Just a few words have changed everything. My family, my relationships with my children, my husband and even myself. I still don't know if my troubled situations will ever change or be fixed, but no longer is that my worry. I have done my part and have done as I was instructed to do. I have forgiveness for myself, the others involved and can honestly say I can let go. I simply don't care anymore. It is a burden that has been lifted and I have been graciously given the tools to overcome the situations that will come. WOW!! God is Good!!!

Well this post was a bit more than I wanted it to be, but oh well. Although, I am still struggling physically, my mind and heart are at peace and comfortable. For that I am so grateful and blessed!