A friend of mine from back home, (Eldorado, IL) just found out that her baby Jack has cancer. He will be 2 next month and is the sweetest, cutest boy I have ever seen. Yep, he totally beats my boys, with that smile of his!! lol Katie and her mother will be at the St. Judes Children's Hospital in Memphis for the next 3-4 weeks for his 1st treatment. It just breaks my heart to see that Katie has to endure this, she is the nicest person I have ever known. I don't think I ever remember seeing her upset or angry. She is just one of those very happy people that see the positive in everything. Even in cheerleading in high school, she kept us laughing. That is a tough thing to do then, but she was always so happy!!
They made a website to help support her and her family and to keep us updated. I just ask if you read this blog, please pray for them all. Jack is just a super kid and I just feel Katie's pain as a mother. I cannot imagine what her thoughts are, but if I know her, they are positive. She is such a trooper, so I know Jack will have the same spirit!!
http://www.helpjackfightback.org/
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Full
I have been feeling very full since Sunday. Something that I haven't felt (naturally or spiritually) in a long time. I have missed so much service lately and have a feeling it won't be letting up anytime soon. But none the less, I enjoyed being there Sunday. I got what I was looking for and so much more. I have been so troubled by a few things for months now and after a lot of prayer, I was still just numb and angry with it all. Sunday the Lord gave me such a piece of mind and healing to these situations. HIS words just spoke to my soul and given me such a feeling of contentment. What a blessing!! These situations may not change, but I have and that in itself is a miracle and testimony of HIS POWER!
Before Sunday I was angry that after months of prayer NOTHING was happening. Not even a small budge of change. . . nothing!!! I was angry with God and frustrated with the life I had been given. (I know, how ungrateful, right?!!) But I am human and I felt this way. I was judgemental and ANGRY. I did not choose to be placed in this life and with certain family, but none the less, here I was. Sunday there was a such a sweet spirit in the air and I was just filled with the need to surrender. I was stuck in my seat for the fear that I had no right to be down front. I hadn't been to church in so long and my heart was not in the right spot. I was held by fear of what others would think. (typical for me!) But then, my sweet friend went down and I just knew God had sent her there knowing I would always support her. So down I went. Doesn't HE ALWAYS know what we need, even when we think He doesn't!!!
Simple words HE spoke to me changed my entire outlook on things. Just a few words have changed everything. My family, my relationships with my children, my husband and even myself. I still don't know if my troubled situations will ever change or be fixed, but no longer is that my worry. I have done my part and have done as I was instructed to do. I have forgiveness for myself, the others involved and can honestly say I can let go. I simply don't care anymore. It is a burden that has been lifted and I have been graciously given the tools to overcome the situations that will come. WOW!! God is Good!!!
Well this post was a bit more than I wanted it to be, but oh well. Although, I am still struggling physically, my mind and heart are at peace and comfortable. For that I am so grateful and blessed!
Before Sunday I was angry that after months of prayer NOTHING was happening. Not even a small budge of change. . . nothing!!! I was angry with God and frustrated with the life I had been given. (I know, how ungrateful, right?!!) But I am human and I felt this way. I was judgemental and ANGRY. I did not choose to be placed in this life and with certain family, but none the less, here I was. Sunday there was a such a sweet spirit in the air and I was just filled with the need to surrender. I was stuck in my seat for the fear that I had no right to be down front. I hadn't been to church in so long and my heart was not in the right spot. I was held by fear of what others would think. (typical for me!) But then, my sweet friend went down and I just knew God had sent her there knowing I would always support her. So down I went. Doesn't HE ALWAYS know what we need, even when we think He doesn't!!!
Simple words HE spoke to me changed my entire outlook on things. Just a few words have changed everything. My family, my relationships with my children, my husband and even myself. I still don't know if my troubled situations will ever change or be fixed, but no longer is that my worry. I have done my part and have done as I was instructed to do. I have forgiveness for myself, the others involved and can honestly say I can let go. I simply don't care anymore. It is a burden that has been lifted and I have been graciously given the tools to overcome the situations that will come. WOW!! God is Good!!!
Well this post was a bit more than I wanted it to be, but oh well. Although, I am still struggling physically, my mind and heart are at peace and comfortable. For that I am so grateful and blessed!
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